Spring Break Confession
(I posted an earlier version of this on facebook but decided to expand it into a journal post for Caring Bridge too.)
Confession: I’ve been feeling a bit sad/jealous to be stuck in OKC during Lorelei's senior year Spring Break reading facebook posts of what feels like everyone else from afar having the time of their lives.
Then God puts this in my face:
Jesus Calling today: "I shower blessings on you daily, but sometimes you don’t perceive them. When your mind is stuck on a negative focus, you see neither Me nor My gifts."
I'm sorry God.
- Thank you Jesus for the cancer that you use to draw us to our knees and that gives us the opportunity to glorify You so others can know Your love too.
- Thank you for the availability of wonderful medical treatment.
- Thank you for providing financial means to pay for medical treatment.
- Thank you for my job.
- Thank you for that car with 165,000 miles on it that worked well enough to transport me safely to work today.
- Thank you for providing protection and refreshment for all of our friends and loved ones who are traveling right now.
- Thank you for rain.
- Thank you for fun memories of Spring Breaks from the past (The photo in this post is from a 1999 trip to Six Flags over Texas.)
- Thank you that we survived Y2K (and finally finished off the last can of tuna from the stash.)
- Thank you for people who write fun books like The Hunger Games and for those who make them into movies that we can look forward to seeing after a long day of chemo.
- Thank you for a husband who laughs at me when I hide under a blanket and scream at the TV during an episode of “Walking Dead.”
- Thank you that we have enough food to make it necessary to exert self control or diet or exercise.
- Thank you for allowing me to live in a country where true religious persecution is a foreign concept.
- Thank you that I don’t have a headache today.
- Thank you that Hannah can be here in between Baylor and WashU to help mother her baby sister.
- Thank you that Lorelei will be healed by the time our sons leave this year to serve in Afghanistan and that they will be here to support her through the journey.
- Thank you for reminding me that there is much more to this life than happiness; that Joy is possible even when happiness is fleeting.
Posted on Tue, March 20, 2012
by Andrea Decker filed under